silence

26 years of my life has been history that i feel belong to somebody else.

im not quite sure whether i know who i am anymore, are we being sent on earth to wonder who we are? is that really important?

big B, i thought i knew back then, but i was wrong, and what about now? have i forgotten that learning is a life long process? and have i forgotten the person and the things matter most in life are those you spent your time less with. siting and waiting for you.the ones you have spent most of your time spent the less time when your life almost bid farewell.

it's nobody's fault but it's a sign.

devil and angel is not out there, it is always here, hanging in your thoughts. they do exist because YOU exist. duality is the world we're living in. of course.

right and left.
night and day.
fast and slow.
hot and cold.
light and dark.

Eker have said it.

and we'll walk slowly to the end of the tunnel, with our hands tied to our back...heads down. maybe then we'll know what we should have done. BETTER.

the end.

Im proud to say that...

when the clock strikes 12 on the 1st of January 2010:


I'VE BEEN ABLE TO STAY SINGLE FOR THE WHOLE YEAR OF 2009!!!!!!!!

terms & conditions:
1) kiss doesn't count
2) less than 2 months relationship doesn't count
3) flirting doesn't count
4) imagination doesn't count
5) loving yourself doesn't count
6) owh wtf,anything as long as it doesn't feel like a RELATIONSHITEY!it doesn't count!!!

do i wanna stay on?

It's over

but it's okay.

save me from 'H'

heartache and headache.

im ready for so many things,just surrender your

E
G
O

babe.

wita is sleeping.

have you ever sat in front of your laptop and thought you had done a lot of things when seriously, you have not moved closer to even 6.5metres away from your seat for hours.

i don't know bout you but i feel weird.

why am i doing this to myself when i can actually start my car and visit old friends, actually attend an event or even sit and sip coffee with my girlfriends that i am already comfortable with, effortlessly.

tonight i'm gonna sit here and wait for ferrah perryd to show up. not cool.

i wanna watch moulin rouge and cry like somebody just died but i don't wanna show up at work with swollen eyes. in the meantime.i wanna hit somebody so hard, that it hurt and laugh till sore.sad evil and happy at the same time.i tell you human are greedy.damn im a greedy human being.

politics in homosexual

ah.not again.politics.even in our sexual orientation?

gtalk-ing to a friend one fine afternoon. i should have worked at that moment but somehow she got my attention (see,that's why!!)

this friend T was into this installment/14 days exhibition of lbgtiq thingy and worked with a friend,M. even if T had been in bed with a woman one thing for sure T is not even gay. i don't know whether she would do the right commotion for one.i am really worried,lol.i really do.

so she was telling M that one time she did with Y. M started to think something (not quite sure it's good or bad), because Y was at this event and was quite close to M that night. T told Y about this and say no way Y, your politics are so different from M! Y was like wtf??! since when I'm politicking my sexual orientation goodness!!T was telling why not.you have a blog and open about your gayness (well she's not the only one) and M is just different and I think, Y, you won't get along. T told Y that she should broaden her politic definition regards to her blogging activity.


owh man this is what happen when an attacker try to be a defender. opponent gets a penalty.

bloody jam makes me a cold person!

Phone ringing.owh F.

F: hiiiii.......do you miss me?

(sambil jenguk keta depan nie nak pergi kanan ke tak nak,handphone terkepit kat telinga kanan sebesar baling kat anjing boleh mati,tangan kiri kena tukar gear,bas belah kiri pulak sikit lagi nak langgar.aaaaaaarrggghhh!!!!!!)

me: NO I DON'TTTTT!I'll call u back i'm stuck in this bloody trafffiiccc!

selamba je.tapi itu ikhlas. time2 gitu xsempat nak rindu2 betul tak. nasib baik tiada pergaduhan berikutan kejadian tersebut.