how i, should have handled the case/ apa yang sepatutnya dilakukan

kalau masa bole ditarik2 dan lajukan, alangkahnya bagus.tak payah langkah berjaga2.tapi kalau buat keputusan yang salah kena demerit and boleh betulkan balik.macam spider solitaire tuu...

anyways.

im greatful for wat i had, wat im having, who i was, i am and be.but if i could turn back time, i would have done everything differently. to me, being one comes from different psychological background, and reason.

1) lost their father at young age.
2) growing up rather difficult with brother(s) -for girls
3) being too pampered by parents -for boys.
4) sexual abuse - boys and girls
5) biological

i wanted to say broken home because it seems that it always leads to self unfortunate but no, i haven't met anybody that has this entity. so far.

and the list goes on. anybody happen to read this, please bear in mind that watever written does not come from any famous psychologist or spokeperson, doctors,government & etc.

it's pure experience of mine, my mind and soul of years experiencing this state of affair.

so. my problem was not only that i already had a problem, but how i encountered it. being somehow a 'nancy boy' wen i was young i thought i could handled everything by myself. i admit that i have faced a high level of self denial, social destruction, lack of concentration & passion in academics in my long teenage years.

used to lose some back then now i'm living my mid 20s reclaiming wat i have missed. i gain more friends and accumulate meaningful friendships, playing underground music, drink,smoke and try as hard to be a discipline staff. i am not thinking bout marriage because it seems so fast. more friends sending wedding invitation but yet i have no budge on that.honestly.


sometimes it's heartbreaking to know that nobody but myself know how i can't change. i think because love and lust just can't live without each other. i would cut my finger for those opposing to this.

it's getting late and tomorrow's monday. that means work my friends and i need to sleep!!goodnite and stay stoned.


cheers.